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5/13: Hitting the wall already?
Dec. 5th, 2011 09:17 pmSo I come home from work with a head full of ideas I want to mess around with and things I want to do.
Then I sit down, head on over to MSPA, and start doodling silly pictures of my characters if they were in Sburb. I get so distracted, so easily.
So, hell to my plans, then, I guess. Let's talk about getting distracted. What is it that causes me to get so sidetracked when there's things I really want to do? Pictures I want to draw, writey bits I want to write, massive costume projects I want to cut out (deadline-ish thing, everything cut and ready by the end of the month, keep telling myself that...) and yet I still end up going whee, let's draw stuff that has nothing to do with anything.
Why don't I want to do the stuff I want to do? Procrastination's a silly thing, isn't it? And what I end up doing while I'm procrastinating half the time is just going 'whee, internets, aren't internets wonderful' even when there's nothing new or exciting that I really want to sit down and do, watch, read... well, I got to writing this, at least?
Maybe part of it's the whole 'when I come up with the awesome ideas' deal. Because when I come up with the awesome ideas is usually when I'm knee-deep trying to find the address of some trucking firm in Québec or something equally ridiculous. And having my computer crash. That is to say, work. Middle of the day, when my brain is doing its best thinking and activity, and it's having to spend it all on mundane as all hell tasks. Jobs are a bit ridiculous like that, aren't they? I can try my best to scribble things down while I remember them, but if I spend too long a-scribbling, I just know I'm going to get some funny looks.
Ah, well, I guess it's part of life? I don't think I could ever make a professional writer, so it's the company address hunting and bull that is currently making the money. I want to be able to create, though: to try and work with the ideas that keep running through my brain. Maybe even get one that I didn't gank from Square-Enix or Disney or Andrew Hussie or ... yeah, insert list of fandoms here.
It's easier for me to draw when I'm not in the mood than it is for me to write. Just a little bit. Drawing, at least, isn't such a linear chain of events: I can go scribble at one bit, come back and fix a next, keep pulling things into a whole. Writing from start to finish tends to get me in a knot: I always think of things that would be awesome for further down the line, little tasters and snippets, and just end up with a document full of meaningless little phrases and samples. Which is all very nice if that's the effect you're going for, but as a rule, I'm usually not...
Well, at least I got through writing this. Not much decent content this time, I'm afraid. Maybe if I'd written it earlier instead of ... yeah. That's procrastination for you!
Then I sit down, head on over to MSPA, and start doodling silly pictures of my characters if they were in Sburb. I get so distracted, so easily.
So, hell to my plans, then, I guess. Let's talk about getting distracted. What is it that causes me to get so sidetracked when there's things I really want to do? Pictures I want to draw, writey bits I want to write, massive costume projects I want to cut out (deadline-ish thing, everything cut and ready by the end of the month, keep telling myself that...) and yet I still end up going whee, let's draw stuff that has nothing to do with anything.
Why don't I want to do the stuff I want to do? Procrastination's a silly thing, isn't it? And what I end up doing while I'm procrastinating half the time is just going 'whee, internets, aren't internets wonderful' even when there's nothing new or exciting that I really want to sit down and do, watch, read... well, I got to writing this, at least?
Maybe part of it's the whole 'when I come up with the awesome ideas' deal. Because when I come up with the awesome ideas is usually when I'm knee-deep trying to find the address of some trucking firm in Québec or something equally ridiculous. And having my computer crash. That is to say, work. Middle of the day, when my brain is doing its best thinking and activity, and it's having to spend it all on mundane as all hell tasks. Jobs are a bit ridiculous like that, aren't they? I can try my best to scribble things down while I remember them, but if I spend too long a-scribbling, I just know I'm going to get some funny looks.
Ah, well, I guess it's part of life? I don't think I could ever make a professional writer, so it's the company address hunting and bull that is currently making the money. I want to be able to create, though: to try and work with the ideas that keep running through my brain. Maybe even get one that I didn't gank from Square-Enix or Disney or Andrew Hussie or ... yeah, insert list of fandoms here.
It's easier for me to draw when I'm not in the mood than it is for me to write. Just a little bit. Drawing, at least, isn't such a linear chain of events: I can go scribble at one bit, come back and fix a next, keep pulling things into a whole. Writing from start to finish tends to get me in a knot: I always think of things that would be awesome for further down the line, little tasters and snippets, and just end up with a document full of meaningless little phrases and samples. Which is all very nice if that's the effect you're going for, but as a rule, I'm usually not...
Well, at least I got through writing this. Not much decent content this time, I'm afraid. Maybe if I'd written it earlier instead of ... yeah. That's procrastination for you!
