At last...

So got home Sunday, jetlagged like crazy from a night flight. And then the internet decides to be an absolute pain. The connection has been screwed up; it's working at the moment but I have no idea how long it's gonna survive for. I'm gonna give it a little while before anything... I hope it behaves... so far, only the downstairs computer is behaving, I'll have to try and fix up the wireless connection again later but I'm just using what I know works for the moment, heh.

But anyway, home now and settling back into the routine of life again. Will try and go into more stuff and put the photos up later when I know the computer's going to behave long enough. ^^;;

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...I'm screwed. I'm sitting here typing with tears running down my face, so much LJ angst.

Mum's hounding me to get onto another course - I don't want to be on another degree course. And I especially don't want to be stuck back here when I do the next whatever I do. I don't even think I can get onto a degree thingy this year anyway. Mum's saying engineering stuff for some reason, I don't know why she thinks that's a good move - part of it appeals but there's a little bit of me screaming. (Sarge, this is Simmons, I'm not happy with this plan... </gratuitousRVB>)

But the thing is, I don't know what I want to do, I don't know where I want to go, I just want to get the hell away from here. I don't know if I want to continue in the path I've started.
I want to get away. It's the whole they want experience before you let you in but where do you get experience and especially around here in the freaking MIDDLE OF NOWHERE.

I just want to move on.

Hey, Gem, if you're reading this, how the hell do I get onto a course like the one you did? 'Cause it might be the only freaking chance I have.
Either that or I double check the whole genetic crap military stuff situation.a