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Urrrrrgh.

How the hell is is possible that I can hate my own style so much? Not to sound like I'm showing off, but I know I'm good at what I'm good at. ;)
Thing is, what I'm good at? Not what I want to be good at. (For the most part, I can live with the good at armour/cybernetics thing, heh.)

But yeah. I'd do anything to be good at realism. At stuff that itsn't stylised. And yeah, I try, I practice, and I know that's the main thing. I just - goddamn it, I don't know.
I don't like my style. Nice happy anime or semi-anime? I don't want to do the happy stuff. Hell, it's not like I want to do the really gloomy crap either. But I just... want to get away. Study animation and character design for long enough and it's bound to drive you up the wall and away from cute stuff...
I don't have the patience or the eye for details, and it annoys me. I just don't know how to get away...

Eh, pointless, selfish rant probably. But it just went - gah. Sometimes, it's hard not to be selfish.